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"Hello? Hello?? I'm sorry, there's nobody home right now. [ obnoxious peal of laughter: go ]

Ahh, that's right! Leave a message, and I'll get back to you. Right? That's how it goes? Aha, no telemarketers, please!

If you run up my bill, I'll have to ask you to pay the extra costs.

[ BEEP ]

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[badbite]

He's! He's really brave, and strong! ( it's a bit louder than she intends it to be, but she wants sakamoto to know of heine's strength—not physical, lily's the strongest of their pack but she doesn't feel like the strongest, she feels like the weakest of them all, and heine has what she doesn't: mental strength. ) He always helped me. . .

( she trails off, grows quiet. she doesn't know, she could tell the truth—or she could say something else. finally, she settles on: ) It's different now.

[shoubai]

Do you really think so? [ brave, strong. the helper, the protector, the pack leader. another puzzle piece, small, clicks into place. ]

How is it different?

[badbite]

( he doesn't want to deal with it anymore. she's a useless pup, following him around, and he can't deal with that anymore.

words are stuck to her throat, and she just looks down, withdrawing emotionally—the blue in her eyes is distant, like she's looking into a far off place that happens to be in the same location as the couch cushion, and dim, like there isn't a light anymore. )

( slowly, she says only this: ) . . . . He. . . . said so.

[whizbangs]

[heine's a kid, a scared kid, just like all of them. but a scared kid with people he needs to be strong for. is that better or worse, she wonders vaguely. thinks of the conversation they had, tell lily I'm dead -- is all of this just too much to pile on that kid's thin shoulders?

is carol pushing him too far in trying to fix this, trying to get him to talk to his sister again?

but the state of lily without him is too much for carol to handle. does that make her selfish?

it's all just -- too much.

heavy frown notching her brow, mind reeling with that overwhelming and too-familiar cocktail of guiltworrysadness, carol's eyes start to droop shut.]

[shoubai]

We can never leave behind the people we care about, not completely. Even if he's said that, I'm sure it doesn't mean he's stopped caring.

[ he reaches out with a careful hand, brushing at pale strands of hair, a gentle stroke of her head. slow and steady. he could afford to be so, right now. he could afford to wait. ]

[badbite]

( she stops, breath stilling for a moment before she leans into the touch, lips twisted into an attempted smile—but it's not there for very long and her eyes begin to well up. ) But—he. . . said he doesn't. . . can't. . . deal with me anymore. . . .

[shoubai]

Someone who cares so much wouldn't change their mind on how they feel, not so easily. Maybe he's scared. People say a lot of sad things when they're afraid.

[badbite]

( she turns her gaze up, head tilting; in a small, wondrous voice, she asks, ) Heine is scared? ( before pausing, looking down, ) What is he so scared about. . . ? I'm not scary. . . . am I?