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"Hello? Hello?? I'm sorry, there's nobody home right now. [ obnoxious peal of laughter: go ]

Ahh, that's right! Leave a message, and I'll get back to you. Right? That's how it goes? Aha, no telemarketers, please!

If you run up my bill, I'll have to ask you to pay the extra costs.

[ BEEP ]

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[he'd rather tell him than have him find out; he'd rather show him the knife than let him be stabbed]

i talked 2 takasugi yesterday

what did you talk about

[what did they talk about? the black and white of print makes things so much more concise]

he told me how 2 be strong

is his kind of strength the kind you need to do what you must

maybe i dont know i think so he never lies and he knows what its like

then youll do well to listen hard and listen good
no man knows better of this than he does

u shouldnt have left him alone its really bad hes really bad

we all do what we have to
we all make sacrifices for what we need to obtain

[ he's not holding back, not dumbing it down here; he trusts in badou to be able to figure it out, to understand ]

he was mine

i was some1 elses fuck you 4 thinking its ok

i never said it was ok
it never was
it never will be
it isnt

hope it was worth it but i bet it aint

no one can really judge that can they
are you angry at me on his behalf?
or at your own circumstances?

im just fucking angry u know what i got 2 sacrifice 4 what i want ? still me theres basically nothing of him left how is that fucking fair

dont tell me no1 can judge that b/c we both know ur fucking lying again

do you want the truth, badou?

i aint asked 4 nothing else

you haven't asked
for anything else

in terms of success
yes it was worth it
i achieved what i set out to do
i became a businessman and i sail the stars and i try to bring two sides at odd together through my own means
all at the price of leaving three important people behind
in those terms, it was worth it, a good investment
it was a damn good exchange

in terms of the heart, how i felt
and of the soul, what i am
i dont regret a thing
i cant

i left behind three important people
i left behind family
i left behind my country
i left my sword

there are some things you never forget in your life badou
not any time
not ever
they come to you time and time again when you least expect it
like an old friend dropping by for a visit
like a tax collector
like an enemy

it never goes away

it was a necessary sacrifice

but i will never be happy with it

[it's with all the un-blunted certainty of a grieving kid that the response comes]

good u dont deserve 2 be u got more than enough of what u wanted already

i did
and im not
rest assured badou
see you at work tomorrow

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badbreak - 2013-09-15 14:17 (UTC) - Expand

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